Tuesday, August 25, 2015

The Road to Awe

Day of 1 Yellow Magnetic Seed
Tone 1 (Magnetic): creative power to Unify Purpose, action of Attraction
Yellow Seed (KAN): Targets and emphasizes Flowering (Ideas)


There are many types of love and many points along the spectrum of love. Yet, in our modern societies, we tend to fixate on only a few expressions of what love is; those being national, parental, familial, communal, friendly, romantic and personal love/loving. 

But what do we know about love itself? Not simply through experience or conversation, but of its origin; as a concept, as a word, as a thing. 

The concept popularly known as Love is attached to the word. The primary definition of the word love begins, "an intense feeling of deep affection," then goes on to, "a person or thing that one loves," before finishing off at, "feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to (someone)." 

The sense of this word finds its origins in this way: 

From Old English lufu, of Germanic origin; from an Indo-European root shared by Sanskrit lubhyati 'desires,' Latin libet 'it is pleasing,' libido 'desire.'

So from knowing this, we understand that the most popular love - romantic love - is derived from a sense of desire, being pleased and feeling something. It begins as a noun, something more personal, but can also find expression as a verb. In regards to someone or something, desiring them/it, pleasing them/it - these are acts of loving (yourself and - when consensual - others). 

From here on out, we will call this aforementioned type of loving "High Love;" as in higher along the spectrum of love, as in more difficult to achieve and maintain, as in it can make you feel high and as in romantic love. 

High Love is not the love of parents-to-children, or children-to-parents (ideally); nor is it the love of family members (though it co-creates parents, families and children). That being said, High Love does feature prominently in communal, friendly and nationalistic love. 

Community, friends and nations are clusters of concepts that overlay to assist an individual in feeling like/knowing that they belong or do not belong. Such groups shape early desires and early concepts of what is pleasing.

Monday, July 27, 2015

On Communication

Day of 11 Blue Spectral Eagle
Tone 11 (Spectral): Creative power to Dissolve Liberation, action of Release 
Blue Spectral Eagle (MEN): Creates and emphasizes Vision


I'm of the opinion that communication is the primary key to human liberation. Obviously, communication would only mean so much without action. But, unlike our ancestors, I think modern peoples are influenced by waves of communication first, which they act upon after. 

In other words, there is a lot going on in the modern person's cranium. A lot of conversations, a lot of images, a lot of words, a lot of ideas and a lot of impressions. Comparatively, I suspect our ancestors had to be much more aware of the way things were outside of their heads. Their inner dialogues were likely, originally, quite basic. 

"Aware. Hungry. Cold. Horny. Scared." 

As language, dialects and communication advanced, those thought processes and inner dialogues got more complex. However, before widespread media - including advertisements - human beings who couldn't read were more or less left to their actual experiences to inform their thoughts. Conversations they overheard or talked about, experiences they watched happened or had happen to themselves directly, music they were close enough to experience, places they could know about only if they traveled to them or someone they encountered talked about it and, of course, dreams. 

Today, in our modern-est of modern societies, this is far from the case. Many of us live in actualized or growing concrete jungles. Many people go entire days without seeing anything more natural to this Earthly experience than the passing of the Moon and the Sun. They don't see oceans, lakes, trees, mountains, the actual ground/soil or animals in nature. They are completely apart from the land they are on. They are conditioned to have a small perspective of what it means to be on this planet in that their impressions of Existence are 95% human in product and experience. We're not the only things here and it is healthy to remember that fact. 

Beyond that, the modern person is bombarded by imagery, media, noise and words constructed in order to produce certain effects. Increasingly, our personal human experience is made to feel like it is less and less of our own doing, of our own choices, or of our own experience. 

Yet, like those ancestors who had to cross far expanses of land and water, we are still acutely aware of ourselves. We are just becoming more and more desensitized to the feeling of being within ourselves. And herein lies the disservice.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Requirements of Me

Edited by my current self as of 7.4.13 in blue.

Day of 10 Planetary Hand
Tone 10 (Planetary):  creative power to Perfect Manifestation, action of Producing
Blue Hand Seal (MANIK):  Knows and emphasizes Accomplishment (heals)


Dear Potential Lover,

When I became abstinent I literally opened myself to the possibility of never having sex again. That was in me to do. It was a viable possibility at that time. I needed years of space from the way sexual intimacy is done in our society (Western) and by our species in order to gain clarity on it. There is still so much that I do not (and may "never") understand about sexual intimacy. But after 2 years of abstinence I realized I am an erotic and sexual person by nature; and that, if done purposefully, sexual intimacy could be beneficial to me and my existence on this Earth. 

And only now, after nearly 3 years of abstinence, have I realized how I can engage in sexual intimacy without disregarding myself. "Disregarding myself" means engaging in a sexual act that undermines the actuality of my being. Let's call it "Token Sex." 

Regarding myself means speaking of and doing the sexual intimacy I require. Coupled with being consciously attentive to those requirements and what I'm doing with myself. Principally speaking, any other sexual experience would subvert my awareness of what I am. That activity would lessen me and thereby constrict my purposefulness within Existence at this time. This time is what I have and it is my experiential trade and currency. I'm not fucking around with it. This life is invaluable, yet I will forever do my utmost to pay it back with interest. 

One of the pillars of my life practice is the understanding that every person is made up of 5 carnal energies: the boy, the girl, the man, the womyn and the elder. Each person relates differently to the presence of these carnal energies within their nature. When considering these 5 energies in relation to the sexual intimacy that is perceivable to my nature; within sexual intimacy it is my womyn energy that engages most fundamentally. Sometimes my man energy and/or girl energy can be present too. Yes, I incarnated within a female body so that is the energy readily available to me. Yet, for me, I am constantly attempting to expand my awareness so it can comprehend my womyn energy. It is necessary that I engage her and that I engage with her with proper regard and attentiveness. 

I wasn't consciously working to do this when I began my abstinence. Really I was just trying to get some perspective and stop wasting my energy/time. Yet in the process of my abstinence, I was reintroduced to my womyn energy and she relayed to me my misuse of her energy. She and I have been in recovery and we require further recovery. The more recovered we become, the greater our awareness of one another becomes actualized. 

I am learning what my womyn energy requires in order to be integrally present within me. When it comes to sexual intimacy, she has made it clear that we cannot venture into sexual acts that are not sacred. My interest in engaging in sexual intimacy isn't in getting off. My interest in engaging in sexual intimacy is in attending to the person I'm with as well as being attended to. (And not to be an asshole, but this is what I'm talking about: ORIGIN Middle English (in the sense [apply one's mind, one's energies to] ): from Old French atendre, from Latin attendere, from ad- ‘to’ + tendere ‘stretch.’) 

The sacredness I am speaking of is not determined by ceremony or words alone. "My" sacred is the intent, attention and extensiveness one gives to a life altering act that involves the alchemy of combining unknown substances. The attention required is nothing short of complete presence to - and awareness of - what is going on before you, around you and with you. What makes a sacred act sacred is the intent of going about acts and their futures with your will extended outside of you and into other things. A single word for this is Life, but I consider Existence to be alchemical. Thus, I treat everything within Existence as such.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Checking In....

Day of 7 Red Resonant Dragon
Tone 7 (Resonant): creative power to Channel Attunement, action of Inspiring
Red Dragon Seal (IMIX): Nurtures and emphasizes Birth


Hhhhhheeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Long time. Yea. I haven't forgotten about this GATR baby. I just have been emerging from myself in greater detail these past few months. Due to this I have been largely in a gestation state that has not really "allowed" for me to write about my personal philosophy/opinion. 

Times are changing, I'm changing. Also, I have to say that creative as I am, my creativity does not always wish to be written. Sometimes I'm speaking it, other times singing it, occasionally I'm poeticizing it. And then every now and then, ideally once a month, I'm penning philosophical about it. 

That's why I'm back here checking in! I hope you're well and if you're not well, I hope you intend for yourself to be better. As I am still not quite in my ideal philosophical state of mind (for writing this blog), I am going to leave you with some links that have been informing my consciousness. 

Until next time!

The List of Awesomey Awesomeness Links of Awesome Town, Earth








Love * Light,
GATR

P.S. I'll be back!

P.P.S. The Time Keepers Say...

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Reclaiming Choice: The Renewed Frontier?

Day of 11 Red Spectral Moon
Tone 11 (Spectral): creative power to Dissolve Liberation, action of Release
Red Moon Seal (MULAC): Purifies and emphasizes Universal Water

An article I wrote for allvoices.com on December 11, 2011...
(Which I will repost under that date)

2011 saw a lot of upheavals, upsets, surprises and activity. Compared to the seeming complacency of people across all societies in 2010, 2011 involved the reclaiming of the civilian's voice.

Considering modernity and convenience in the world today, it follows that many people do not put thought into how our species arrived here. We are not aliens - depending on who you ask - and we didn't arrive on Earth in a spaceship with everything neatly set up and abandoned. We arrived where we are today because our ancestors struggled, grunted, fought and strived to ensure that some day, some of us would be able to live sustainably.

I'm not sure how sustainable today's world is, but it's certainly more convenient than the one that required making up language, designing everything and truly surviving the wild. Back when the first people of our species woke up to their own consciousness, they had indeed reached a new frontier.

Zoom all the way forward to the present: December 2011. Are we still frontier people? Or have we forgotten our roots and what got us here? In my short lifetime, any year but this one I would have had my doubts. I would have spoken about unrest, but not about action. I would have pointed out dissatisfaction, but not known where to truly locate collective response. 2011 has changed that.

Decisions made in 2011 haven't been pretty, or perfect or even particularly "widespread" (considering the number of people in each country); but what 2011 decisions have been are an example of what happens when people begin reclaiming their choices. Ownership of action is necessary to a frontier person. To explore "the furthermost limits of knowledge or achievement in a particular subject," one must have confidence to act. Having confidence to act requires having faith in one's ability to make one's own choices.

Actively making choices is at the very nature of frontier spirit. To go where no person has gone before requires the desire to KNOW, the ability to ACT and the strength to deal with the futures of those KNOWING ACTS! It is what our species has loved about every great innovator in our history: a seeming lack of fear (or an obvious amount of courage) to try the unknown and to base one's faith in their own existence upon the knowing that only they can see.