Winter Solstice "2016"

Day of 4 Yellow Self-Existing Star

Tone 4 (Self-Existing): creative power to Define Form, action of Measuring

Yellow Star (LAMAT): Beautifies and emphasizes Elegance

I curated and penned my first write-up concerning an "astrological day" (such as Solstice, New Moon, Full Moon, etc.). You can find that writing below!

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*Sources will be below this write-up in case you wanna do further reading.

This is a write-up for the entire Winter (Solstice); 

Feel free to take your time reading it!*

0. The first thing that occurred to me was the number 4. 4th Season of the year, 4th dimensional Earth and 4 corners to the boxes we place ourselves in when actually we live in concentric circles. No surprise, then, that when I pulled each of the 3 cards I will be presenting below, the first card I pulled was #13, so 4. 

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1. From the Gaia Matrix Oracle we gain the wisdom of Card 13: Judge/Oracle 

We run through 4 stages in the learning process of this card...

a) Cosmic Law: The inevitable. The future of your actions. The response to your call or action, no matter how many years out. The last ripple. The entirety of creation coming together to meet you from moment to moment. The things you cannot make up yourself. The things you created but in their own rite. The things you've done when they're carrying on by themselves. 

b) Self-Conflict: The final battle of recognition. The process of taking bitter medicine. The looking in the mirror when you'd rather just run and yell. The incoherence of your circumstances in those moments when you cannot deal. The world rushing up to meet you when you are convinced you are all by yourself. Dealing with your self. Tending to your own problems. Knowing you need help. 

c) Trials: The tests life presents you with so you can prove to yourself and existence whether you've actually learned something you claim to have gone through already, know already and gotten over. The things that fall apart regardless of how many times you've convinced yourself that you did the thing that needed doing to fix them. The going through hell. The knowing what you've made of yourself and, thus, of what you are actually capable. The making of your current self. 

d) Conscience: The acceptance of your trials. The quiet moments of self reflection that you don't battle. The wondering what else you didn't know about yourself and being willing to find out. The hearing other things than the voice you've always known to be "yourself." The wondering without knowing or needing the answer. The thing that shows up all by itself without your constant "tending" and forced "help." The letting; letting happen, letting go, letting something else. The reward for doing battle against what you've known to be your self. 

Some good quotes from the write-up on this card that may prove useful to you...

"The JUDGE/ORACLE archetype is that power of awareness and justice within you that enables the finest tuning to your own karma, or accumulation of past thoughts, feelings and actions. Some thoughts and deeds may be positive and others negative."

"Now is a time when you can see exactly the source of error in yourself, and by this precise insight, any blind spots will be revealed and will vanish through your confrontation of them."

"There are seven minds in the heart and seven hearts in the mind." (How many do you allow yourself to go through before making a decision you consider important? How many reflections do you allow yourself before you decide?)

"Examine your life, asking always, 'What is at the source of why I thought or did that?' Ask deeply of all the things you have hidden and don't want to see."

The Road to Awe

Day of 1 Yellow Magnetic Seed

Tone 1 (Magnetic): creative power to Unify Purpose, action of Attraction

Yellow Seed (KAN): Targets and emphasizes Flowering (Ideas)

There are many types of love and many points along the spectrum of love. Yet, in our modern societies, we tend to fixate on only a few expressions of what love is; those being national, parental, familial, communal, friendly, romantic and personal love/loving. 

But what do we know about love itself? Not simply through experience or conversation, but of its origin; as a concept, as a word, as a thing. 

The concept popularly known as Love is attached to the word. The primary definition of the word love begins, "an intense feeling of deep affection," then goes on to, "a person or thing that one loves," before finishing off at, "feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to (someone)." 

The sense of this word finds its origins in this way: 

From Old English lufu, of Germanic origin; from an Indo-European root shared by Sanskrit lubhyati 'desires,' Latin libet 'it is pleasing,' libido 'desire.'

So from knowing this, we understand that the most popular love - romantic love - is derived from a sense of desire, being pleased and feeling something. It begins as a noun, something more personal, but can also find expression as a verb. In regards to someone or something, desiring them/it, pleasing them/it - these are acts of loving. Specifically, of loving yourself and - when consensual - loving others. 

From here on out, we will call this aforementioned type of loving "High Love." As in higher along the spectrum of love, as in more difficult to achieve and maintain, as in it can make you feel high, as in a more personal love and as in romantic love. 

High Love is not the love of parents-to-children, or children-to-parents (ideally); nor is it the love of family members (though it co-creates parents, families and children). That being said, High Love does feature prominently in communal, friendly and nationalistic love. 

Community, friends and nations are clusters of concepts that overlay to assist an individual in feeling like, or knowing that, they belong or do not belong. Such groups shape early desires and early concepts of what is pleasing.

Before Time

Day of 9 Blue Solar Storm

Tone 9 (Solar): Creative power to Pulse Intention, action of Realizing

Blue Storm Seal (CAUAC): Catalyzes and emphasizes Self-Generation

I'm going to go out on a limb and tell you a bit about what I think takes place before Earthly Incarnation.... Yes, I do believe something takes place for babies before incarnation aside from coitus.

I have titled this post Before Time because I believe time only exists (is perceived or experienced) in the lower dimensions, which we hominids might associate with Energy Centers or Chakras. The lower dimensions being: 1 (awareness, basic instinct, origins including ancestry, sexual orientation, core principles, behavioral functions, etc.), 2 (growth, emotional temperament, origins of self, sexual preferences, unique identity formation, culturing by immediate placement - i.e. Planet, Landscape, "Continent," "Country," "Society," "Family" - etc.), and 3 (self-awareness, relation to social groups, sense of placement in Existence, origins of purpose within society, conceptions of connectivity to other-selfs, etc.).

When we arrive at the 4th Dimension/Energy Center/Chakra, we step upon the threshold of the "Gateway." I call it the Gateway because it is the threshold before one is initiated into the experiential work of the upper Dimensions/Energy Centers/Chakras. As well, when one crosses the Gateway, their experience of Free Will is taken to a new stratosphere; which will bring us back to the title of this post, Before Time, after I finish up this thought on the upper dimensions.

The reason that I believe the 4th Energy Center to be the "Gateway" is because the 4th Energy Center encompasses Universal or Unconditional Love, self Love and Understanding of the connectivity of Existence.

This is a HUGE deal.

It is difficult, particularly in a species socialized such as ours, to cross this Gateway. We as a species do not, as precedent, socialize one another to be understanding, loving of self or loving of other-selfs. We also, as a species, do not facilitate an understanding of the purpose of Existence that is connected to everything outside of us. We do not, as a contemporary species, respect the land we live on, or the plants and trees that thrive on and clean this planet. We do not, as precedent, respect the rocks and minerals that permit us to build and to heal ourselves; we do not respect the oceans, rivers and lakes that provide us with sustenance or the animals that are cohabitants of this planet. We do not, as a contemporary species, respect the air that we breath or the bodies that we inhabit for this brief Earth Cycle.

Conscious Infinity, Intelligent Energy/Intelligent Infinity, Conscious Energy

Day of 8 Yellow Galactic Sun

Tone 8 (Galactic): Creative power to Harmonize Integrity, action of Modeling

Yellow Sun Seal (AHAU): Enlightens and emphasizes Universal Fire

I cannot say exactly what the line up was of Creation, but I suspect it was a combination of Conscious Infinity begetting Intelligent Energy or Intelligent Infinity begetting Conscious Energy. Really they are not divided, so I think they are more interchangeable than comparative.

Whatever is said to determine The Cosmos, they only exist because of Infinity. Infinity is an eternal presence. How could it not give birth to Consciousness? Infinity is forever in and of itself. Infinity is forever with itself and together as one Self. Conscious Infinity is one constant Being Of. Infinity is constantly Being. 

Is it any wonder, then, that you cannot "kill" Consciousness? If anything, you can only depart "with" it. And I say "with it" and not "from it" because you cannot be away from Consciousness - we are limitless consciousness' (granted we aren't the finest example, but we're also not very observant or imaginative as a socialized species). "With" is defined as indicating separation or removal in this context. That is, the removal of our consciousness' from Self's Consciousness; and the removal of ourselves from that limitless consciousness. The significance of departing "with" over "from" is also because the choice is made on both sides. Conscious Infinity (Self's Consciousness) allows all of itself freedom to express its experience in whatever way it decides and is capable of in any given moment. We, being the offspring of Self's Consciousness in the constant progression of Conscious Infinity, are extended this choice. We are equally free to make uninformed choices as we are to make informed choices. (On Earth we just socialize one another to continually make uninformed choices).

As well, in 3D formulated consciousness, we learn the expression of unique choices made of our own will. So this is really the time for us to "decide" upon things for our-Self ("You") and consequently for our other-Selfs ("Everything Else").