Be the Death of Me

Day of 6 White Rhythmic Mirror

Tone 6 (Rhythmic): creative power to Organize Equality, action of Balance

White Mirror (ETZNAB): Reflects and emphasizes Endlessness

I read astrological forecasts. (Probably not a big surprise if you've poked around this blog at all). I also read the news. I discriminate against both accordingly and on a case-by-case basis. Some news reporting is garbage, as are some forecasts. And then there are those that ring true.  

I've spoken to different people with varying beliefs on both subjects. And what I have said more or less consistently to everyone is, "I don't discriminate against the truth." Now, obviously I'm not perfect so this a generalized hope rather than an actual summation of my lifestyle. That being said, I have no problem with gathering knowledge, wisdom or truths from science, mysticism, elements, people, or evils. All these things can be teachers and, if experienced or encountered, will have influence of some kind. Even if that influence is apathy, disregard or dislike. 

So, long story short of the why: I wouldn't exist if the planets in our lovely little solar system had not aligned up exactly as they did, in that order, until "they were all" satisfied and became the round about motions we exist within today. If I only exist because the Sun, Moon, Jupiter, Mercury and the other planets formed just in the way they did, then I don't see why such planetary bodies would not have occasional influence over my state of mind. I breathe but for the planets, why should my moods not also be affected by them, who made me possible? (They don't spin because we tell them to). 

I rule nothing out if it makes sense. I also try and live my life with integrity, intention, transparency and communication. 

So, when I read PowerPath's new monthly astrological forecast for November--which has the theme "forgiveness"--I had a "Stop Moment" ("come to Jesus") with myself.   

I am a 29-year-old person, who--for most of my life--has been "healthy." I have not been to the hospital often, nor for anything severe, and I have eaten most whatever I wanted for the entirety of my existence. This is due to my good fortune more so than it has ever been because of my intentions. I have done physical activities in the past and I have limited sugars, but for many years I have eaten foods (and drank drinks) I have allergies to and I have eaten with no thought to true nutrition or actual dietary consistency for my body. After 29 years, that self-indulgence has taken its toll on my fortitude.  

Now, I'm not sure exactly why reading an astrological forecast with the theme of "forgiveness" made me have a Stop Moment and think about my diet and the way I have been and known myself for the past 29-years; but I do know that is what I needed to reflect on. 

Let me be clear: I'm not changing my diet on moral grounds and, for as long as I can remember, my modus operandi has largely been to ignore prolonged bodily discomfort for temporary edible pleasures. But today I spoke with a 5th generation Shaolin Monk and read this particular astrological forecast and it just clicked in my head that, by gawd fuck it, some shit has to change. And that shit is my own behavior against myself! That little shit is ME! Thus, whether or not the astrological reading is "true," it has proven useful and it is because of reading the forecast that I can even admit the following. 

People Are The Worst

Day of 1 White Magnetic Wind

Tone 1 (Magnetic): creative power to Unify Purpose, action of Attraction

White Wind (IK): Communicates and emphasizes Spirit

People are the worst. I say this with humor, only because otherwise it would be all too depressing. Not only are people the worst but, as a species, we're actually not that interested in existing. 

Humans are terrible at being themselves. In fact, I would argue that most aim to avoid being completely genuine in the truest sense of the word "genuine." Actually, scratch the word genuine. I just looked it up and it comes from weird and convoluted origins. What I am trying to say is that people, in general, and as a whole, are not authentic. We are not encouraged to be authentic in our modern world(s). 

We are encouraged to perform our identities, to conform our identities, to identify through commodities and to cross off an arbitrary checklist of "how" to "properly" age through the human process. Humans, of all the things we could and might have done and been, have ultimately decided the "best" way to exist is to make being human into a business only of concern to humans. 

This is completely bizarre to me. 

We have created cities and systems of living that all but eliminate other living things - other aspects of nature - unless those things conform to OUR desires of how those things should be. Trees/Plants? Fuck them. Animals? They can go hang themselves. Water? BULLSHIT. Air quality? That sounds like a personal problem! 

Outside of our human constructions, our human ideas, our human responses, there is a living organism called THE EARTH. It is what our species has come to call a planet, orbiting around a ball of fire we have come to call a star, in the middle of an infinite and unfathomable expanse we have come to call the universe. We would not exist as we know us if not for these entities that came before us.  

This is the realest reality there actually is. This is one of the ultimate realities that exists not only for humans, but for all living things on our Earth/Organism/Planet. It's extremely significant. Further, it is as significant as all the things that humans have decided (over time) are important to us. 

Despite our species' desire to believe the contrary, humans are not that important. 

I listed 4(ish) other existing things on this planet: Trees/Plants, Animals, Water and Air/Oxygen. If any of these 4(ish) things became extinct, EVERYTHING ELSE WOULD DIE. If humans became extinct (if we all just rolled over and died one day), everything else would live. We are the last factor in the Earth Equation and we are also the least important to the Earth Equation from an existence perspective. 

I do not believe it is within a human being's nature to be such a pain in the ass to everything else. Unequivocally or "naturally." It is my opinion that our assholeishness is a choice. Which, considering how fortunate we are to even EXIST as a random unimportant (meat-based) species, really just shows how selfish we are.