Be the Death of Me

Day of 6 White Rhythmic Mirror

Tone 6 (Rhythmic): creative power to Organize Equality, action of Balance

White Mirror (ETZNAB): Reflects and emphasizes Endlessness

I read astrological forecasts. (Probably not a big surprise if you've poked around this blog at all). I also read the news. I discriminate against both accordingly and on a case-by-case basis. Some news reporting is garbage, as are some forecasts. And then there are those that ring true.  

I've spoken to different people with varying beliefs on both subjects. And what I have said more or less consistently to everyone is, "I don't discriminate against the truth." Now, obviously I'm not perfect so this a generalized hope rather than an actual summation of my lifestyle. That being said, I have no problem with gathering knowledge, wisdom or truths from science, mysticism, elements, people, or evils. All these things can be teachers and, if experienced or encountered, will have influence of some kind. Even if that influence is apathy, disregard or dislike. 

So, long story short of the why: I wouldn't exist if the planets in our lovely little solar system had not aligned up exactly as they did, in that order, until "they were all" satisfied and became the round about motions we exist within today. If I only exist because the Sun, Moon, Jupiter, Mercury and the other planets formed just in the way they did, then I don't see why such planetary bodies would not have occasional influence over my state of mind. I breathe but for the planets, why should my moods not also be affected by them, who made me possible? (They don't spin because we tell them to). 

I rule nothing out if it makes sense. I also try and live my life with integrity, intention, transparency and communication. 

So, when I read PowerPath's new monthly astrological forecast for November--which has the theme "forgiveness"--I had a "Stop Moment" ("come to Jesus") with myself.   

I am a 29-year-old person, who--for most of my life--has been "healthy." I have not been to the hospital often, nor for anything severe, and I have eaten most whatever I wanted for the entirety of my existence. This is due to my good fortune more so than it has ever been because of my intentions. I have done physical activities in the past and I have limited sugars, but for many years I have eaten foods (and drank drinks) I have allergies to and I have eaten with no thought to true nutrition or actual dietary consistency for my body. After 29 years, that self-indulgence has taken its toll on my fortitude.  

Now, I'm not sure exactly why reading an astrological forecast with the theme of "forgiveness" made me have a Stop Moment and think about my diet and the way I have been and known myself for the past 29-years; but I do know that is what I needed to reflect on. 

Let me be clear: I'm not changing my diet on moral grounds and, for as long as I can remember, my modus operandi has largely been to ignore prolonged bodily discomfort for temporary edible pleasures. But today I spoke with a 5th generation Shaolin Monk and read this particular astrological forecast and it just clicked in my head that, by gawd fuck it, some shit has to change. And that shit is my own behavior against myself! That little shit is ME! Thus, whether or not the astrological reading is "true," it has proven useful and it is because of reading the forecast that I can even admit the following. 

On Communication

Day of 11 Blue Spectral Eagle

Tone 11 (Spectral): Creative power to Dissolve Liberation, action of Release 

Blue Spectral Eagle (MEN): Creates and emphasizes Vision

I'm of the opinion that communication is the primary key to human liberation. Obviously, communication would only mean so much without action. But, unlike our ancestors, I think modern peoples are influenced by waves of communication first, which they act upon after. 

In other words, there is a lot going on in the modern person's cranium. A lot of conversations, a lot of images, a lot of words, a lot of ideas and a lot of impressions. Comparatively, I suspect our ancestors had to be much more aware of the way things were outside of their heads. Their inner dialogues were likely, originally, quite basic. 

"Aware. Hungry. Cold. Horny. Scared." 

As language, dialects and communication advanced, those thought processes and inner dialogues got more complex. However, before widespread media - including advertisements - human beings who couldn't read were more or less left to their actual experiences to inform their thoughts. Conversations they overheard or talked about, experiences they watched happened or had happen to themselves directly, music they were close enough to experience, places they could know about only if they traveled to them or someone they encountered talked about it and, of course, dreams. 

Today, in our modern-est of modern societies, this is far from the case. Many of us live in actualized or growing concrete jungles. Many people go entire days without seeing anything more natural to this Earthly experience than the passing of the Moon and the Sun. They don't see oceans, lakes, trees, mountains, the actual ground/soil or animals in nature. They are completely apart from the land they are on. They are conditioned to have a small perspective of what it means to be on this planet in that their impressions of Existence are 95% human in product and experience. We're not the only things here and it is healthy to remember that fact. 

Beyond that, the modern person is bombarded by imagery, media, noise and words constructed in order to produce certain effects. Increasingly, our personal human experience is made to feel like it is less and less of our own doing, of our own choices, or of our own experience. 

Yet, like those ancestors who had to cross far expanses of land and water, we are still acutely aware of ourselves. We are just becoming more and more desensitized to the feeling of being within ourselves. And herein lies the disservice.

Reclaiming Choice: The Renewed Frontier?

Day of 11 Red Spectral Moon

Tone 11 (Spectral): creative power to Dissolve Liberation, action of Release

Red Moon Seal (MULAC): Purifies and emphasizes Universal Water

An article I wrote for allvoices.com on December 11, 2011...

(Which I will repost under that date)

2011 saw a lot of upheavals, upsets, surprises and activity. Compared to the seeming complacency of people across all societies in 2010, 2011 involved the reclaiming of the civilian's voice.

Considering modernity and convenience in the world today, it follows that many people do not put thought into how our species arrived here. We are not aliens - depending on who you ask - and we didn't arrive on Earth in a spaceship with everything neatly set up and abandoned. We arrived where we are today because our ancestors struggled, grunted, fought and strived to ensure that some day, some of us would be able to live sustainably.

I'm not sure how sustainable today's world is, but it's certainly more convenient than the one that required making up language, designing everything and truly surviving the wild. Back when the first people of our species woke up to their own consciousness, they had indeed reached a new frontier.

Zoom all the way forward to the present: December 2011. Are we still frontier people? Or have we forgotten our roots and what got us here? In my short lifetime, any year but this one I would have had my doubts. I would have spoken about unrest, but not about action. I would have pointed out dissatisfaction, but not known where to truly locate collective response. 2011 has changed that.

Decisions made in 2011 haven't been pretty, or perfect or even particularly "widespread" (considering the number of people in each country); but what 2011 decisions have been are an example of what happens when people begin reclaiming their choices. Ownership of action is necessary to a frontier person. To explore "the furthermost limits of knowledge or achievement in a particular subject," one must have confidence to act. Having confidence to act requires having faith in one's ability to make one's own choices.

Actively making choices is at the very nature of frontier spirit. To go where no person has gone before requires the desire to KNOW, the ability to ACT and the strength to deal with the futures of those KNOWING ACTS! It is what our species has loved about every great innovator in our history: a seeming lack of fear (or an obvious amount of courage) to try the unknown and to base one's faith in their own existence upon the knowing that only they can see.

Function Over Form

Day of 2 Yellow Lunar Warrior

Tone 2 (Lunar): Creative power to Polarize Challenge, action of Stabilizing

Yellow Warrior Seal (CIB): Questions and emphasizes Intelligence

Hello hello, it has been some time since I've written here. I've been busy experimenting with the subject of the title of this post. That is, function over form. I have had many conversations about this idea lately, interestingly enough particularly with men, and it is time for me to say something about it. 

We are riddled by forms. They are delivered to our doorstep, televisions, schools, existences. Society loves form, capitalism loves it more. Form is packaged for you and sold to you and impressed upon you. To be attractive you must look "this way," to be successful you must have "this thing," to seem intelligent you must acquire "this degree." 

Yet, it is never the form that is responsible for the happiness. 

It is always the function that the form provides expression for that brings the reward. 

What is function, then? Well, definitively speaking it is "the action for which a person or thing is specially fitted or used or for which a thing exists." A synonym for this particular definition is PURPOSE. You'll remember I talked about that last post, a few months ago. It is fitting then, that I take that one step further. 

Function provides form. Form often requires refining in order to provide for better function. The square wheel, for example, was not really useful. The form restricted the intended function of the creation. 

So it is with us. 

Often times, we attach ourselves to ideas of forms - often not even "our own" ideas (everything belongs to Existence first) - and we allow those misshaped forms to define our existences. This causes a lot of misery, being that ALL FUNCTIONALITY is being suppressed into a limited (and let's be honest, not very creative) number of "acceptable" forms. 

An example of how we commonly limit ourselves into restricted forms can be found in that we often attempt to force a desired result into the way "it should look," rather than focusing on HOW IT SHOULD BE. So, a concrete example:

Before Time

Day of 9 Blue Solar Storm

Tone 9 (Solar): Creative power to Pulse Intention, action of Realizing

Blue Storm Seal (CAUAC): Catalyzes and emphasizes Self-Generation

I'm going to go out on a limb and tell you a bit about what I think takes place before Earthly Incarnation.... Yes, I do believe something takes place for babies before incarnation aside from coitus.

I have titled this post Before Time because I believe time only exists (is perceived or experienced) in the lower dimensions, which we hominids might associate with Energy Centers or Chakras. The lower dimensions being: 1 (awareness, basic instinct, origins including ancestry, sexual orientation, core principles, behavioral functions, etc.), 2 (growth, emotional temperament, origins of self, sexual preferences, unique identity formation, culturing by immediate placement - i.e. Planet, Landscape, "Continent," "Country," "Society," "Family" - etc.), and 3 (self-awareness, relation to social groups, sense of placement in Existence, origins of purpose within society, conceptions of connectivity to other-selfs, etc.).

When we arrive at the 4th Dimension/Energy Center/Chakra, we step upon the threshold of the "Gateway." I call it the Gateway because it is the threshold before one is initiated into the experiential work of the upper Dimensions/Energy Centers/Chakras. As well, when one crosses the Gateway, their experience of Free Will is taken to a new stratosphere; which will bring us back to the title of this post, Before Time, after I finish up this thought on the upper dimensions.

The reason that I believe the 4th Energy Center to be the "Gateway" is because the 4th Energy Center encompasses Universal or Unconditional Love, self Love and Understanding of the connectivity of Existence.

This is a HUGE deal.

It is difficult, particularly in a species socialized such as ours, to cross this Gateway. We as a species do not, as precedent, socialize one another to be understanding, loving of self or loving of other-selfs. We also, as a species, do not facilitate an understanding of the purpose of Existence that is connected to everything outside of us. We do not, as a contemporary species, respect the land we live on, or the plants and trees that thrive on and clean this planet. We do not, as precedent, respect the rocks and minerals that permit us to build and to heal ourselves; we do not respect the oceans, rivers and lakes that provide us with sustenance or the animals that are cohabitants of this planet. We do not, as a contemporary species, respect the air that we breath or the bodies that we inhabit for this brief Earth Cycle.

Conscious Infinity, Intelligent Energy/Intelligent Infinity, Conscious Energy

Day of 8 Yellow Galactic Sun

Tone 8 (Galactic): Creative power to Harmonize Integrity, action of Modeling

Yellow Sun Seal (AHAU): Enlightens and emphasizes Universal Fire

I cannot say exactly what the line up was of Creation, but I suspect it was a combination of Conscious Infinity begetting Intelligent Energy or Intelligent Infinity begetting Conscious Energy. Really they are not divided, so I think they are more interchangeable than comparative.

Whatever is said to determine The Cosmos, they only exist because of Infinity. Infinity is an eternal presence. How could it not give birth to Consciousness? Infinity is forever in and of itself. Infinity is forever with itself and together as one Self. Conscious Infinity is one constant Being Of. Infinity is constantly Being. 

Is it any wonder, then, that you cannot "kill" Consciousness? If anything, you can only depart "with" it. And I say "with it" and not "from it" because you cannot be away from Consciousness - we are limitless consciousness' (granted we aren't the finest example, but we're also not very observant or imaginative as a socialized species). "With" is defined as indicating separation or removal in this context. That is, the removal of our consciousness' from Self's Consciousness; and the removal of ourselves from that limitless consciousness. The significance of departing "with" over "from" is also because the choice is made on both sides. Conscious Infinity (Self's Consciousness) allows all of itself freedom to express its experience in whatever way it decides and is capable of in any given moment. We, being the offspring of Self's Consciousness in the constant progression of Conscious Infinity, are extended this choice. We are equally free to make uninformed choices as we are to make informed choices. (On Earth we just socialize one another to continually make uninformed choices).

As well, in 3D formulated consciousness, we learn the expression of unique choices made of our own will. So this is really the time for us to "decide" upon things for our-Self ("You") and consequently for our other-Selfs ("Everything Else").